And I've never trusted happiness sense. I have to really force myself think that things are gonna be okay in terms of worrying about my family or one friends whatever. Yeah been the same since brother died. There's a melancholy and made it goes away. I'm 50% happy sad at any given moment. only advice can give people for when you lose someone like is won't ever get over more know embrace it better off are. don't want forget what felt he died because deserves that. That's how important was me. So if had suffer rest life lonely without him his particular thing sense humor brought then that's way honor him. You know I'll forever. accept live with it. But it's okay. all those feelings. as an artist where lot your stuff comes from. keep honoring Bye. Seeing song writing movie doing part movies book whatever is has sadness fear Those them alive. Whatever put into work art.