Noah Bentley. My muse my everything reason why and how I do everything try to accomplish in this life because without him it wouldn’t be possible. He’s more than world he’s motivation behind push myself do. the try strive things that I’ve never thought could pushed through times where didn’t wanna keep going. But then think back him. How he looks at me. up me stares me with his little smiles lets out laugh. His faces don’t get started on they amaze entertain ways nobody else can or ever has. The way makes faces when angry sad happy excited confused giddy adore looking each every last one of them. If was choose what kind kid have would funniest thing smart mouth wise beyond years jokes crack make laugh until stomach hurts can’t breathe anymore. such a hot mess goofball cornball even but that’s not complete days doesn’t anything just needs taken extra care love care patience. say anybody having horrible day as openly rawly unapologetic does knows mind owns right feel wants feel something our only dream making social norm. Even like everyday truly puts into perspective for reminds we’re all human entitled raw ungraceful ugly bad days. As long Noah need earth world. know became so attached once mean mugging baby next door go even remember before. Suicide is topic we hardly talk about account “scary eariness” surrounding hush hushness whole God reasons kept pushing reminded I’m needed here greater purpose fact He come save time absolutest low no other why. baby That’s biological child regard sees anyone will see I’ll understand who as. All however seen cared desired depended amazes comparing to. I’d war any play And nothing cause harm am around it. constantly struggle self-acceptance lot self-image much part coloristic standards placed by everyone including own black community. Bentley look color light fully young lady often gets asked if mixed biracial. being too enough most touching thinks ok. treat different less been lenses stare adoration love you condition. character intelligence chatter brings quite brought tries. stops talking either knowledgeable curious whatever talks of. interested random things. ton dinosaurs cars work do favorite toys. friendly now 2 ago first met 1 year old baby. why everything. Words describe important Bentley impact goes believe half today changed grown over relation soft had heart made kind those surround more always dreams aspirations power want after came flesh blood. Flesh blood couldn’t us closer are importance put emphasized Noah’s entire being. incomplete accomplishments managed same