I don't know what was thinking Leaving my child behind Now suffer the curse and now am blind With all this anger guilt sadness Coming to haunt me forever can't wait for cliff at end of river Is revenge seeking? Or seeking someone avenge me? Stuck in own paradox wanna set myself free Maybe should chase find Before they'll try stop it It won't be long before I'll become a puppet It's been so Since last have seen son lost monster To man slaughter you've gone I've singing stupid song could ponder The sanity your mother wish lived present gift past mistakes But future keeps luring like pack snakes Your sweet little eyes smile is remember Those fuzzy memories mess with temper Justification killing isn't justified What happened son? I'm terrified lingers mind And thought on getting bigger sorry baby there