if this is what i get i won't be honest anymore nobody likes a secret and i was always yours i moved out and i made some new friends sometimes when i shout it feels like no one hears it i feel more free than i have in years six-feet in the ground if i don't love you then why did i call you again? if i love him if i need him maybe that'll make him stay i'm lost and confused where do i go without you? what are we? just a sorry excuse for love? in what world do we exist not separate but as two? do you think it means something that i wrote another song about you? i talked to my walls about you pretty sure they're tired of hearing it lovely to be rained on with you i don't wanna make this about me i just can't hold it in today so i guess the wedding i'll never be getting will live in the back of my mind as i grow up without you i miss it i miss you in and out of wanting us now you're fading but i never know when to stop talking you're a reckless driver and one day it'll kill us if i don't let go i'm trying to let go i think it could help being alone they know that nothing they say is enough so they don't say a thing i don't think we're wasting time but if you do i'm sorry there's a hole in my heart and i hate that it's there i like to act like i really don't care but i do cause i hate all of my habits but i happen to love you i'm a little scared you'll leave even though you tell me you won't i don't know you and i'm guessing that you don't know me i never loved you more than when you said goodbye it's really annoying that i'm triggered like this cause your name isn't spoken but i'm speaking it